God loves you little one. You know this yet you try to push him out of your life and find meaning elsewhere. You look for love in all the wrong places. Love is always inside of you, you open yourself up to it when you start to look at yourself in the way that God himself does. Love is not what others tell you it is and what they preach it to be. Love starts inside of you dearest. You have the power, the total power to find the deepest God-filled love you can have when you simply look toward love that is within.